Anxiety

When I awaken to a weight on my chest,

I think of all the things I couldn’t leave to rest

These thoughts just will not settle and nest

And there’s this thing that I cannot test

Most nights I lay awake

Similar to how in panic I shake

And I cannot take

The feelings of ache

In my body

There is a secret that will not surface

But then you came along and put those

Thoughts in their place

You come running each time

And tell me that it will all be fine

Even when I’m telling you to

Leave me behind.

You help me quieten my mind

Even when all my thoughts unwind

And I start to feel my chest bind

I know you won’t leave me behind

I must tell you that I keep these things hidden

All of my anxieties, they are unbidden

But then you came in and its like though they were unwritten

You knew they were there.

There is a secret that will not surface

But then you came along and put those

Thoughts in their place

You come running each time

And tell me that it will all be fine

Even when I’m telling you to

Leave me behind.

You help me quieten my mind

Even when all my thoughts unwind

And I start to feel my chest bind

I know you won’t leave me behind

There is something about they way you hug

The way you talk

The way you tell me its okay

The way you’re quiet

The way you hold me in my fear.

There is a depth I would fall in

Yet you would come and pull me back up

You never let me fall and drown

And for that you deserve a crown

Only you have been able to tell me things are gonna be okay

And I’ve been able to listen to you.

Even when I tell you to go away

When I tell you to just leave

You never do

And I must admit that makes me brave

It makes me understand that there is something out there for me to stay alive for

When I start shaking

And hyperventilating

You can always tell

And I appreciate that you

Just let me do

What I need to

To survive

I know that most days

I annoy you because there’s

Always something that is wrong

But I cannot help that I am this way

I cannot help how I feel

I cannot control the anxiety

But then you came along.

There is a secret that will not surface

But then you came along and put those

Thoughts in their place

You come running each time

And tell me that it will all be fine

Even when I’m telling you to

Leave me behind.

You help me quieten my mind

Even when all my thoughts unwind

And I start to feel my chest bind

I know you won’t leave me behind

Oh I know you won’t leave me behind.