‘Suicide’ by Jack Eadon

As I sit here and wonder why
Wonder why I should want to die
I wonder what would become of me
But most of all, my family

For though it’s hard for them to live
With my in-ability to give
It would also be hard for them to live
If into my desire to die I were to give

My family are all to me
All that I wish to see
I may not be all that much them
But they are all I live to see

For though it’s hard for them to live
With my in-ability to give
It would also be hard for them to live
If into my desire to die I were to give

Yet how can I live
If I cannot give
That which I promised
A life full of happiness

For though it’s hard for them to live
With my in-ability to give
It would also be hard for them to live
If into my desire to die I were to give

For I promised my wife
Upon pain of my life
That when we were married
I’d keep her in style

For though it’s hard for them to live
With my in-ability to give
It would also be hard for them to live
If into my desire to die I were to give

A promise I can’t fill
I was such a dill
A promise I made
My love, I do fail

For though it’s hard for them to live
With my in-ability to give
It would also be hard for them to live
If into my desire to die I were to give

So I sit here knowing why
Why I should want to die
Seeing my faults
Understanding the reason why

For though it’s hard for them to live
With my in-ability to give
It would also be hard for them to live
If into my desire to die I were to give

by Jack Eadon